Writing a blog can sometimes be hard even when it is a topic that you are passionate about, for me I enjoy running and making this blog about running has its easy days and hard days. Today seems to be a hard day. I want to talk about how great the training is going, but the truth is its not...I have been stalled this week and last because I miss counted the weeks to the half and now I am bored and feeling over burdened and I have only not run for a day, but running is away for me to wash away a lot of the stress that has been cropping up lately. I have also been looking past my 1/2 marathon, which is in two weeks, to my full marathon and I think that also plays a big part.
Additionally, I don't think I have planned this outing very well at all. This Disney trip has been a fiasco and we have not left yet and that is primarily because I thought "lets change our rhythm" and now it will not turn out like I would like and that may be why I am looking further down the road. Here are some of the areas where I have made mistakes (for those of you who do not know me very well I despise making mistakes...hot flushes of embarrassment every time) and here is where I have learned as well. First I messed up waiting too long to make the reservations for the hotel, did not read the information on-line closely enough to detect the differences with tickets, I have don't feel that I am leaving out of here with all my Disney ducks in a row (no offense Donald, Daisy, Huey, Dewy, Louie, Uncle Scrooge, etc.) and while it is Disney and therefore "magical" it will be different from the last few times.
I also made a classic blunder on two fronts I got sick and it is hanging around for more than my traditional 48 hours and I took my running shoes, my ONLY pair of running shoes and ran a beach run just two short weeks ahead of my big race. Who does that? That's like putting dirty oil in your car on purpose. Now they have been sitting in the back of my truck since Saturday because I fear checking on them, but I am not about to break in new shoes two weeks before a race...I mean I am not that stupid. I was really hoping to take them to at least the 600 mile mark and I will be lucky to get another 30 out of them.
Then there is the classic over confident athlete mistake of looking too far down the road and I have stopped focusing on the run at hand and I have started thinking down the line to the big marathon in January. I have started reading more articles online about how to run, hydrate, eat, wear, sleep, train everything marathon and I have not even gone 13.1 yet and therefore I think I have stopped taking this challenge as seriously as I should. 13.1 is a long way and to date I have only gone 10 and it is hard for me not to get cocky...focus -Davis - focus!
So, here I am changing a lot of my rhythm to my run and I am unsure it all agrees with me, maybe I am just still trying to get over this cold/allergy/sinus thing and my head is just not on right or maybe I am realizing that 13.1 should not kill me and I want to be a strong finisher and the tweaks are good. Or maybe I am focusing on ancillary problems and they are sapping my strength and motivation. That being said I think I am going to be motivated to go to bed, because if I am going to keep calling myself an athlete then I need to start acting like one and take care of body because unlike Steve Austin I don't have six million dollars if something breakdowns.
